‘The Circle’ winner Paddy Smyth —‘ I always felt that I have to prove something, which is terrible’

He thought winning the reality TV series in 2019 would bring a sense of self-acceptance about his disability and sexuality. Instead, it was anticlimactic and left him struggling even more

"I wanted to change the narrative from ‘that poor victim disabled guy’ by showing I could actually be a bit of a villain.” Photo: Steve Humphreys.

Sarah Caden

“Throughout my life,” says Paddy Smyth, “people have always wanted to fix me. My family. Society. And it left me with the question: do I want to be fixed, or do I feel that need because everyone else thinks it?”