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Hillary Clinton aide Huma Abedin lived with 'a tremendous amount of guilt' after emails found in husband Anthony Weiner's laptop prompted the FBI to reopen its investigation into Clinton ahead of the 2016 election. 

In her upcoming memoir Both/And, Abedin wrote about the time former FBI Director James Comey said he was restarting a probe into Clinton's private email server after agents found emails that Abedin had forwarded to the former congressman to print.

At the time, Weiner was under a separate investigation for sending salacious texts to a 15-year-old girl, as first reported by DailyMail.com.

She wrote in her book: '''Anthony," I said, wanting to shake him through the phone, "if she loses this election, it will be because of you and me."'

While promoting it on NBC's Today show on Monday, Abedin added: 'I lived with a tremendous amount of guilt from the moment this unprecedented announcement, 10 days before the election, breaking the norm of any previous FBI director, yeah, it was a shock to my system.'

Longtime Hillary Clinton aide Huma Abedin, 45, says she lived with a 'tremendous amount of guilt' after her husband's sex crime investigation led the FBI to reopen a probe into her boss

Abedin has worked for the Clintons since 1998, when she first entered the White House

Abedin married former US Rep. Anthony Weiner in 2010. The disgraced politician was being investigated by the FBI in 2016 for sending explicit photos and texts to a teen (left)

The longtime Clinton aide also seemed open to running for office in the future, announcing: 'I'm copying Shonda Rimes. This is my year of saying yes. I'm not saying no to anything,' before clarifying her answer, 'That was "I don't know.'"

Abedin, 45, has been working for the Clintons in one way or another since 1998, when she first entered the White House during Bill Clinton's sex scandal with Monika Lewinsky.

FBI director Comey made waves when he announced he was reopening his investigation into Clinton's use of email as Secretary of State, a politically divisive issue, just 11 days before she was set to face Donald Trump at the polls. 

Comey was accused by Democrats, including Clinton, of tipping the scale for Trump.

'And the thing that really got to me about that experience is the year before, when I had heard that the FBI was starting this investigation, I had not heard from anybody about any information that I had volunteered,' Abedin said Monday.

'I had reached out to say, "Can I be helpful?" I didn't understand why nobody tried to reach me. So, yes, I will carry that to my grave.' 

Former FBI Director James Comey re-opened a probe into Hillary Clinton's private email server after finding her emails in Weiner's laptop. Abedin had allegedly sent them to him to print out

Abedin, above with Clinton during her first presidential run in 2008, expressed interest in running for office: 'I'm copying Shonda Rimes. This is my year of saying yes'

In the end, Clinton beat Trump, a political novice, by almost 3 million votes, but lost the presidency due to an Electoral College count of 227 to Trump's 304.

In 2019, Comey said that reopening the investigation was the 'least terrible option,' and suggested that not doing so would have been 'lying' to Congress and the public. 

Abedin met Weiner, then a Congressman from New York, in 2007 and married him in a 2010 ceremony officiated by Bill Clinton.

She described the beginning of her relationship with Weiner as an 'all-consuming captivating love affairs,' adding that he was 'charismatic' and 'smart' and that she was drawn by their shared commitment to public service.

Their relationship was worn down by years of sex scandals, beginning with a tweet of a sexually explicit photo posted by accident in 2011 and ending with revelations that he sexted a teenager just weeks before the 2016 election. 

At one point, the disgraced politician sent out an explicit photo of himself with their baby in the frame.

They filed for divorce in 2017, though it's yet to become official. Weiner served 18 months in prison and is now a registered sex offender. 

Abedin has since separated from Weiner, 57, with whom she shares a 10-year-old son. The parents were spotted shopping together in New York City last week.

Weiner and Abedin were spotted grocery shopping in New York City last week. The pair, who share a 10-year-old son, have filed for divorce, though it has not yet been finalized

Abedin said of Weiner: 'I wish him well. He, I hope, wishes me well. I think he does.'

'He is my co-parent, and I learned the full truth, I processed it and moved on,' Abedin said in an interview with Norah O'Donnell of CBS Evening News on Sunday.

'I wish him well. He, I hope, wishes me well. I think he does.' 

Abedin was just 12 weeks pregnant when the first sexting scandal broke in 2011. Weiner resigned from Congress just a few weeks later.

'My baby became my primary focus,' she said Monday morning. 'I was deeply in love with this man. I didn't understand the behavior and what was happening. And every sort of decision I made was a decision for that moment.

'For periods of time, I was just trying to get through that day.'

In her book, Abedin wrote that she briefly contemplated walking off a subway platform during the scandals. 

She refuted a suggestion that she was 'in denial' when she stood by Weiner during his failed bid for NYC mayor in 2013. 

'I don't think I was in denial. I think I did not understand that my husband had a compulsion, as was later revealed, an addiction that was increasingly getting worse over time.

'It's not that we weren't in therapy. It just wasn't - you know, you have to be committed,' she said.

Abedin previously said that she ignored the advice of her mother or Hillary Clinton when she stood by Weiner during the second sex scandal in 2013, while Weiner was running for mayor of New York.

'I didn't take their calls,' she said.

The longtime Hillary Clinton aide also revealed that she was kissed without her consent by a then-sitting US senator while she was working for Clinton.

Abedin previously said it was her Muslim faith that got her through Weiner finishing in fifth place in the NYC Democratic mayoral primary in September 2013

Abedin wrote that she attended the 2005 dinner without Clinton, then-senator from New York, with 'a few senators and their aides,' according to a copy of the book obtained by The Guardian.

'I ended up walking out with one of the senators, and soon we stopped in front of his building and he invited me in for coffee. Once inside, he told me to make myself comfortable on the couch.'

She said the senator took off his blazer, rolled up his sleeves and made coffee before sitting beside her on the couch.

'Then, in an instant, it all changed. He plopped down to my right, put his left arm around my shoulder, and kissed me, pushing his tongue into my mouth, pressing me back on the sofa.

'I was so utterly shocked, I pushed him away. All I wanted was for the last 10 seconds to be erased.'

She said that the senator seemed shocked but apologized and said he had 'misread' their relationship.

On Monday, Abedin said she was inspired to come forward after Christine Blasey Ford's 2018 testimony against Supreme Court Justice Brett Kavanaugh, but she declined to name the politician or to clarify whether or not he's still in office.

Weiner served 18 months in prison and registered as a sex offender after sending the above messages to a 15-year-old girl, in a story first reported by DailyMail.com

On Monday, Abedin declined to name the senator who allegedly kissed her in 2005. 'This is about me. And in 2021, a woman should be able to talk about her trauma and her confusion and her experience and it should be okay,' she said

'I chose not to name the individual because this story is not about him,' she said.

'This is about me. And in 2021, a woman should be able to talk about her trauma and her confusion and her experience and it should be okay.'

In the book Both/And: A Life in Many Worlds - set for release on Tuesday - Abedin revealed that the first time she found inappropriate messages from Weiner was during a 2009 trip to the Dominican Republic with the Clintons, before their marriage.

'I noticed an unread email from a woman whose name I did not recognize,' she wrote. 

'I felt a hot rush of blood from my head down to my fingertips. The message was fawning, flirtatious and very familiar, as though this was a woman Anthony knew.

'He said, in an entirely composed manner, "Oh, that’s nothing. Just a fan."

'I didn’t know a seed was being planted in his psyche that would grow into something much darker and uncontrollable, something that would ruin us.

'I was in the midst of what I believed to be a deep, true love affair. Nothing in my experience could possibly have prepared me for what was to come.'