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Kim Mathers was grieving the death of her mother and penned a heartbreaking tribute saying she wished she'd died instead of her - four days before she 'attempted to take her own life'. 

The 46-year-old writer - who is the ex-wife of rapper Eminem - was hospitalised following a suicide attempt on July 30, reports TMZ. 

Her mother Kathy Sluck passed away on July 23 at the age of 65 and her funeral took place in Michigan four days six days later. It is not known how she died. 

Grieving: Eminem's ex Kim Scott was grieving the death of her mother and said she 'wished she'd died instead of her'... four days before her 'suicide attempt' (pictured in her last public sighting in August 2018)

On July 24, a tribute under the name of Kim Mathers was posted on an online obituary site, in which Kim said 'you’re all I had left mama!' 

The heartbreaking post read: 'I don’t even know where to begin mom!!! First off I’d like to say I F***ING LIED TO YOU WHEN I SAID I WOULD BE OK….I LIED WHEN I SAID I CAN DO THIS I PROMISE!!!! 

'F***in f**k all!!! I don’t even know how to do this without you I just wanted you to not hurt or suffer or fight for me anymore!!! But I’m sure you know that!!! You’ve been the support and back bone for me and my kids and I can’t thank you enough. 

'You’ve taught me how to be a fighter and not take s**t and tried to teach me to love myself as much as you loved me!! You’ve be there for every fall I’ve had and BOY WAS THERE A LOT!!!'

Tragic loss: Kim's mother Kathy Sluck passed away on July 23 at the age of 65 and her funeral took place in Michigan four days six days later. It is not known how she died (pictured with a friend)

Kim then praised Kathy for being a caring grandmother to her four children, adding: 'You’ve taught my kids how to love and respect others and also how to be just as crazy as us when needed. We’ve had our riffs but not one second of one day would I not have given my last breath for you. Even now I’d rather it be me than you!!! 

'You’re all I had left momma!!! What do I do now?? How can I go crazy anymore without you here to be the strength and kick in the a*s I need to get better???! I hope you know how f***ing much I love the s**t out of you and how much the kids love you!!! 

'I hope you know every choice I made was to make you a little happier and your life a little easier!!! I really just want you back mom!!! Letting you go was the hardest and worst choice I’ve ever had to make!! I hope I didn’t let you down!!! 

'I will miss you more than you could have ever imagined and I will never be the same without you!! I feel like a f***ing infant learning to walk right now…what we had was more than mother daughter!! You were my best friend, my sister at times, my damn nemesis at others and even I was mom sometimes but it was always pure love!!!'

Heartfelt: On July 24, a tribute under the name of Kim Mathers was posted on an online obituary site, in which Kim said 'you’re all I had left mama!'

Referencing her late father Casimer and sister Dawn, she concluded: 'I can’t imagine this without you!!! I love you momma!!! Kiss my dad and sister for me and you never stop being your sassy cute little sexy a*s!! Love endlessly your pain in the a*s daughter KIM ❤️'

Kathy's funeral took place a day begore police and emergency workers are said to have responded to a call of a suicidal person at Kim's Michigan home, with Kim restrained by deputies due to being so 'combative and violent' that medics were unable to assess her. 

Kim and Eminem, real name Marshall Mathers III, 48, share biological daughter Hailie Jade, 25. Eminem also adopted Kim's daughter Whitney, 18, from a previous relationship, and Kim's late twin sister Dawn's daughter Alaina, 27.

The website reports when help arrived, Kim was cut, with 'several small lacerations on the back of her leg.'     

Past: Kim and Eminem married in 1999, only to proceed with a nasty divorce two years later. They remarried in January 2006 but had broken up again by April (pictured at the second wedding in 2006)

It was claimed Kim was taken to hospital to undergo a medical and psychological evaluation, but is now at home recovering.  

Kim and Eminem married in 1999, only to proceed with a nasty divorce two years later during their famously stormy romance.

They remarried in January 2006 but had broken up again by April. Their relationship and Eminem's rise to global fame inspired his hit movie, 8 Mile.    

Eminem and Kim's volatile relationship is one of rap music folklore - the controversial rapper has frequently taken verbal shots at his on-off lover during his recording career - rapping about killing her, her drug use and infidelity.

Recovery: It was claimed Kim was taken to hospital to undergo a medical and psychological evaluation, but is now at home recovering (pictured in 2007) 

In 1989, when she was 13 and running away from home, Kim and sister Dawn met a then 15-year-old Eminem and the sisters promptly moved into his mom's trailer park with him as his foster sisters.

Six years later, Hailie, who, along with her mother, is the subject of many of the singer's greatest hits - was born.   

In 1997 track Bonnie & Clyde from The Slim Shady LP, Eminem rapped about taking his daughter on a ride-along to dump his wife's body in a lake. 

In track 'Kim' which appears on 2000 album The Marshall Mathers LP, and written while the pair were having marital problems two years previously, the star rapped about killing Kim and putting her in the trunk of his car. 

Past: Kim and Eminem married in 1999, only to proceed with a nasty divorce two years later. They remarried in January 2006 but had broken up again by April. Their relationship and Eminem's rise to global fame inspired his hit movie, 8 Mile (pictured 2004) 

In 2000, after the track's release Kim took Eminem to court to try to stop him from rapping about her anymore, and sought $10million  in compensation for 'the intentional infliction of emotional distress'.    

She also sought to prevent her then-estranged husband from having even partial custody of Hailie - then four. 

The pair later reached a settlement in the case and agreed to joint legal custody of Hailie.  

However just two years later, the Grammy winner took a shot at Kim's drugs arrest on track 'Till I Collapse' from album The Eminem Show.

Their daughter: Kim and Eminem, real name Marshall Mathers III, 48, share biological daughter Hailie Jade, 25 (pictured)

He said: 'My thoughts are sporadic, I act like I’m an addict. I rap like I’m addicted to smack like I’m Kim Mathers.'

His feelings mellowed in 2010 with Recovery album track 'I'm Going Through Changes' with the star rapping to their children: 'I still love your mother, that’ll never change, think about her every day

'We just could never get it together hey, wish there was a better way. For me to say it, but I swear on everything. I’d do anything for her on any day.'

The remorse continued onto 2017's critically acclaimed album Revival, where Eminem finally apologised to Kim on track 'Bad Husband'.

He said: 'But I’m sorry, Kim. More than you could ever comprehend. Leaving you was f*****g harder than sawing off a f*****g body limb      

Close: Hailie maintains a close bond with her father Eminem (pictured in an Instagram tribute)

Kim has previously spoken of how she and the Stan hitmaker repaired their bond and became'best friends', saying in 2015 'He's been real supportive,' she says. 'We're really close. We're just trying to raise our kids together and make it as normal for them as possible.' 

In 2016, Kim admitted that her single-car crash on an empty road near her home in October the previous year was in fact an attempt to end her own life.   

'It was intentional,' Kim told Detroit's Channel 995 radio show Mojo in the Morning.

Stormy: Eminem and Kim's volatile relationship is one of rap music folklore - the controversial rapper has frequently taken verbal shots at his on-off lover during his recording career - rapping about killing her, her drug use and infidelity (pictured 2000)

'I never expected to make it out alive,' she said, adding that she had 'been clean for 10 years.'

An emotional Kim added people think 'just because we have money, that it makes us happy.'

'Yeah, I can pay bills. Yeah, I can get my kids whatever they ask for and it's great to see them happy. But you lose friends, you lose family, you have no one you can trust you can speak to,' she said.

Witnesses saw Kim drive her black Escalade into a ditch, where it smashed into a pole and flipped upside down with her trapped inside.   

'I sat at the end of a road where I knew that no one else but myself would get hurt.

'Yes I drank, yes I took pills and I hit the gas and aimed for a pole.'

Just months later in January 2016, Kim's twin sister Dawn Scott was found dead in the Motor City Trailer Park after a heroin overdose. She was said to be estranged from Kim at the time of her death.

For confidential support in the UK - call Samaritans for free on 116 123 or visit www.samaritans.org 

For confidential support in the US - call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline on 1-800-273-8255 

Court: Kim is pictured in 2004 at Macomb Count Circuit Court where she appeared for violating her probation on drug charges