For One To Faithful

Moirangthem Minakshi Devi *

I fell in love with people because it is painless and lovely
To consume a shroud of dopamine
Kindling my stomach like lightning.
I fell in love with people because it is pleasing and easier
Than looking down into the dull soundless dark space of hatred and apathy.

I fell in love with people because an imagined touch,
And invisible want,an earnest heart
Brings something I cannot find anywhere else.
But, Oh! That I was how happily in love.
Now what a night, this night is meant to sit alone.
Upon the housetop, under the cold stars
And meditate and moan.
Oh! How unhappy, how unhappy am I
Dropping small silver tears upon the dew,
Sitting and thinking, sitting and weeping through the night,
If only my gentle lover was true.
I am left,left solo to contemplate
If loving one, being too faithful has some worth.