For the past four years, the cacophonous American presidency has seemed to drown out quieter, more harmonious human endeavors, which is to say all human endeavors.
When was the last time that an album or movie or novel stayed top of mind for more than an hour? The last movie I saw in a theater, just before they all closed in March 2020, was Kelly Reichardt's First Cow. Set almost entirely in 1820, the film chronicles the friendship of prospectors in the Oregon Territory, shy baker Cookie and resourceful killer King-Lu, who together set up shop selling biscuits made with milk stolen from a rich man's cow, whose udders they drain under cover of night. It's strange as hell. It also has soul-stirring silent passages, and loose or dead ends, and plot turns without exposition. It's about as far from the bleat of partisan cable news as a pastured cow is from Godzilla. But I forgot it the second I emerged from the theater into a night almost audibly buzzing with anxiety and pathogens. My mind had slipped off cultural works this way since 2016. I leafed through novels, watched Netflix as escapism, and determined not to let any sensory-emotional experience get its hooks too deep in me. Why? The government swamped my circuitry, I guess; there was also activism, journalism, the shielding of the kids, the management of fear, the tempering of hope.
But now I'm ready to look back. And so I watched First Cow again, which is why it's fresh in my mind, and then I went back to other works: a short story, a movie, a play, and a stand-up performance. As Daveed Diggs' Thomas Jefferson put it in Hamilton: “What'd I miss?” Easy: the details. Or maybe: the whole experience. For example, I dimly remember admiring “Cat Person” by Kristen Roupenian, which appeared in The New Yorker in December 2017. But it evaporated from memory with the presidential inauguration a few weeks later. Until I reread it, I retained only the last word—“Whore”—and maybe that it centered on a vexed, slow-burn romance. Relishing it just now, I was struck by how precisely Roupenian captures the cadences of an affair conducted over SMS, including the studied use of emoji as an ambiguous placeholder. Even the heart-eyes emoji can be a dodge.
Maybe, she thought, her texting “lol r u serious” had hurt him. That's the train of thought of Margot, the heroine, while with Robert in person. She can't see or hear embodied Robert because of the intrusion of this other, ethereal relationship between their two phones. And because Margot can't see Robert, she mentally writes over his studied negging, designating it “hurt,” which strikes her as sexy. By the time the push-pull between the two of them slackens, and Robert with nothing left to lose texts her that final word, reality comes to reside only in text messages. Life seems only a simulation of phone-on-phone intimacy.
Another artifact I missed in its full glory is Parasite, directed by Bong Joon-ho. Having won the Oscar for Best Picture of 2019, Parasite didn't exactly fly below the radar. But at the time I watched it as a diversion from American life and politics, not as a masterwork sure to outlast breaking news. It will. Parasite begins as a class comedy about the picturesque ingenuity of a poor family of hustlers in Seoul, and then shockingly becomes a slasher flick. It seems more like an assault on the sensibility of the Academy Awards than a capitulation to it.