The writer, who has requested to remain anonymous, details the wait for her results after going for a Covid-19 test after feeling sick, stating that she has done everything she could to try keep herself safe.
When Covid-19 struck, my first emotion wasn't fear, it was anger.
antibiotics and hospitalisations. My eldest son, aged four at the time, was suffering the same symptoms. We bounced from specialist to specialist, until I was diagnosed with two genetic immunity disorders, asthma and celiac disease.
I found an incredible immunologist. I had surgeries and I was prescribed the right medications. After finding the correct diet and exercise regime, my health has been the best it has been in years. My confidence soared and it felt great to be part of the world again.
Then Covid-19 hit.
I'd isolated completely until exercise limitations were lifted. Then, I went out, around five times, to walk in the open. Fortunately, I've been able to rely on food deliveries, so I haven't been inside a shop since lockdown started. My fit, healthy husband has his own office at work, and our teenagers are schooled online, at home.
Anger replaced by fear
On Tuesday, I was tested for Covid-19. I'm waiting for my results.
The anger was quickly replaced by fear. Fear for myself, my family, my friends.
I had been for a 10km walk on Sunday, and I felt a little tired and sore on Monday morning. I pushed through, doing all my normal work, but by Monday night I sensed there was something wrong. I was feeling chills, like electric currents running through my legs, every few minutes. I went to bed early, hoping it was just tiredness, but I couldn't sleep. Every muscle and joint ached and I felt terribly nauseous. By 01:00, I checked my temperature and I had a fever.
I slept through most of the next morning, but my husband came home at midday to still find me sleeping. He trundled me into the car, off for testing, which was easy and less frightening than I had imagined. Everyone was kind and patient, and all the proper protective procedures were in place.
And, here, I wait, along with tens of thousands of people just like me.
We've worn our masks constantly, we've physically distanced as best we can, we've been responsible while looking after our family, friends, neighbours and those in need.
Everyone asks fearfully: "Where do you think you got it?"
It doesn't really matter.
Supportive
I could have been in contact with any number of asymptomatic people, even though my contact with the outside world is extremely limited.
What's most important is that I don't knowingly pass Covid-19 on to anyone else.
I've told family and friends, and they've all been incredibly supportive and helpful, even though they're scared as many of them are vulnerable too.
The effects of Covid-19, especially for those with comorbidities, aren't only physical. Fear, anxiety and depression soar as we stress over loss, whether physical, financial or emotional.
So how do I feel now, almost 48 hours later, waiting for results?
I'd love a negative result, obviously. I'm feeling much better already, so I'm hopeful. I spent the last two days almost sleeping solidly and the brain fog is lifting slowly. It may just be a normal winter flu. I had a flu vaccination months ago, which may have helped shorten the duration.
Physically, I've done everything in my control, by getting tested, taking the right meds and being extra careful around my family.
Most importantly, though, I'm thankful.
I'm grateful for the wonderful medical support that I've received. I have faith in God, in prayer, and in the support of my loved ones.
So now, I wait.
- The writer has asked to remain anonymous
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