Two year's on from losing her teenage son, Charly Wylie says she's terrified her memories of her beloved boy Callum are slipping away.
In February 2018, the 18-year-old was found hanged in his bedroom at the family home in Betws y Coed by dad Kevin, who managed to cut him down and revive him.
But he died two days later at Ysbyty Gwynedd with his family at his bedside.
For months afterwards his distraught mother often found herself in her son's bedroom and took comfort from the bedsheets that still bore his scent.
And recently Charly, her husband and daughter Bea, found the strength to redecorate his room and made a memory box of some of Callum's possessions.
Charly, who runs the Rohan shop in Betws y Coed, with former police officer Kevin, knew she couldn't keep everything, but also couldn't bear to throw away his clothes.
So friend Rachel Shaw came up with the idea of making a quilt out of them.
Her other friends Christine Algieri, Lindsey Banks and Carolyn Bird have since all come on board to help create what Charly is already enthusiastically describing as a "masterpiece".
"It was hard at first cutting his clothes and emotional for me, but what fun we had piecing clothes together, bits and bobs," she said.
"So many stories and memories of Callum will be in that quilt. It's not finished yet but it will be awesome and I'll just be able to wrap Callum around me whenever I want.
"It's so much better than throwing his clothes away, or keeping them in a drawer. I'll be able to see them all the time.
"I've got his signed shirt from primary school, a Welsh flag, his cycling tops and his fiver that we found in his backpack, I'm so grateful to all of my friends."
But the 59-year-old says she has struggled "an awful lot in the past few weeks", despite a recent skiing trip to the Alps where she feels "very close" to her son, who was a Welsh international skier and a fearless mountain-biker.
She says starting year three without him has brought a whole new level of grief emotions.
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Helplines and support groups
The NHS Choices website lists the following helplines and support networks for people to talk to:
- Samaritans (116 123) operates a 24-hour service available every day of the year. If you prefer to write down how you're feeling, or if you're worried about being overheard on the phone, you can email Samaritans at jo@samaritans.org.
- Childline (0800 1111) runs a helpline for children and young people in the UK. Calls are free and the number won't show up on your phone bill.
- PAPYRUS (0800 068 41 41) is an organisation supporting teenagers and young adults who are feeling suicidal.
- Mind Cymru (02920 395 123) is a charity providing advice and support to empower anyone experiencing a mental health problem. They campaign to improve services, raise awareness and promote understanding.
- Students Against Depression is a website for students who are depressed, have a low mood or are having suicidal thoughts.
- Bullying UK is a website for both children and adults affected by bullying.
"Knowing now that living without Callum is the reality for the rest of my life and having to accept this is heartrending and mentally exhausting," she said.
"Part of this is the fading of his physical presence, trying to recall exactly how he looked, spoke, how he was, it is quite terrifying how this is slipping away."
