'I thought the devil had a hold on me': Young mum who became addicted to ice at 15 and gave birth to her son in jail reveals incredible transformation two years after putting down the pipe

  • Chloe Nunkerilowana Quayle, 24, opened up on her ice addiction on Facebook
  • The Sydney mum said she once believed she would be addicted to drugs forever
  • She highlighted the harrowing effects of drug use with before and after photos 
  • Chloe began smoking ice when she was only 15 and was spending $200 a day

A young Sydney mum who was addicted to ice has shared her incredible story of recovery as she marks more than two years of being off the pipe.

Chloe Nunkerilowana Quayle, 24, from Parramatta, took to Facebook on Sunday to open up on her addiction that she once believed would consume her forever.

The mother-of-three highlighted the effects of her drug use by sharing before and after photos in an emotional post which has now gone viral.

'The photo on the left is during my heavy ice addiction, bones sticking out, discolored skin from staying up for days on end without intaking food or fluids, no connection with my babies or family', she wrote.

'The photo on the right is me now 2 years and 6 months clean off drugs with full reconnection with my family and babies, living a full life and getting back into my art and education ... happy to say there is a way out'.

Before: Chloe Nunkerilowana Quayle, 24, from Sydney, opened up on her recovery from ice addiction in a moving Facebook post. She is pictured above during

Before: Chloe Nunkerilowana Quayle, 24, from Sydney, opened up on her recovery from ice addiction in a moving Facebook post. She is pictured above during 

After: The mum of three (pictured with her son) has been more than two years off the pipe after becoming addicted to ice at 15

After: The mum of three (pictured with her son) has been more than two years off the pipe after becoming addicted to ice at 15 

The young mum's story has since gone viral, receiving hundreds of supportive comments

The young mum's story has since gone viral, receiving hundreds of supportive comments

Chloe, who began using ice at the age of 15, went on to say sobriety has been a challenging journey, admitting she still faces battles on a daily basis.

'I remember in my addiction I used to believe that once you're addicted to ice there's no way out, I actually believed that I would be on ice forever and if I did get clean, I'd always get back on it.

'I thought the devil had a hold on me. But now I fight my demons everyday, it takes willpower, it takes strength but it also takes support and love to get you clean.

'Anyone who is caught up in addiction, never give up on giving up, you can do it, you are powerful and you are worthy'. 

I felt like nothing mattered. I was soulless. When I was high I felt really happy, but it was a false sense of happiness.

Speaking to Daily Mail Australia, Chloe revealed her addiction began after she gave birth to her first child, her daughter Alinta, in 2010.

'I met up with old friends in Sydney who were on ice and they offered it to me. After that my life went downhill straight away', she said.

'We started hanging out with people who were giving us free drugs at first; older men who wanted to hang out and give us drugs'.

From there, her addiction sent her on a downward spiral which saw her spending $200 a day on the drug, in and out of jail, and losing custody of her children.

'I felt like nothing mattered. I was soulless. When I was high I felt really happy, but it was a false sense of happiness.

'I hung out with these people, but it was all just really fake,' she said.

'I'd stay up for five days and when I'd come down, I'd feel really suicidal. I was just torn apart thinking about the person I was.

Chloe's addiction sent her on a downward spiral which saw her spending $200 a day on the drug, in and out of jail, and losing custody of her children. Pictured above is Chloe smoking ice

Chloe's addiction sent her on a downward spiral which saw her spending $200 a day on the drug, in and out of jail, and losing custody of her children. Pictured above is Chloe smoking ice 

The young mum was forced to give birth to her youngest son Aziah (pictured) when she was in custody, which she described as the 'hardest thing' she ever had to do

The young mum was forced to give birth to her youngest son Aziah (pictured) when she was in custody, which she described as the 'hardest thing' she ever had to do 

While in jail, Chloe began efforts to get on the straight and narrow, calling in to rehab facilities for young mothers and children. Above she is pictured in a painting of her in prison

While in jail, Chloe began efforts to get on the straight and narrow, calling in to rehab facilities for young mothers and children. Above she is pictured in a painting of her in prison 

'My addiction outweighed everything at the time. I was really selfish, full of resentment. And it was mostly because I hated myself'.  

She added: 'I started lying to my mother. All my money was spent on ice and I would make up lies saying my money had been stolen out of my bank account'.

Chloe revealed her family was no stranger to drug abuse, as her sister and brother are also recovering addicts. 

It didn't take long for them to learn about her addiction, which became evident in her appearance. 

'My eyes were popping out and my hygiene was out of whack. My mum would have to tell me to go have a shower.

'My temper was out of control,' she said. 'It really ripped us apart'.

Chloe's first brush with the law was during one of her ice binges, which saw her locked up in a juvenile detention centre at the age of 15 after assaulting a police officer. 

'I was an alcoholic as well. I used to black out and go into violent fits of rage and started hitting people and hitting police, she said.

'I remember drinking with my friends and smoking ice, and it was all fun. At the time it was my escape.

'We were drinking and having fun and then everything went black. I woke up in a cell and I was like, "what am I doing here?"'

Chloe was forced to undergo treatment at a rehab facility for six months as a condition of her release.

There, she met the father of her second child, her son, but the relationship later turned abusive. 

During this time, she was not using ice but turned to marijuana instead, spending $80 a day on the drug.

Chloe's first brush with the law was during one of her ice binges, which saw her locked up in a juvenile detention centre at the age of 15 after assaulting a police officer

Chloe's first brush with the law was during one of her ice binges, which saw her locked up in a juvenile detention centre at the age of 15 after assaulting a police officer

She continued to work on rehabilitation and finally got clean when she was 21 and a half years old. Picture above is Chloe post recovery

She continued to work on rehabilitation and finally got clean when she was 21 and a half years old. Picture above is Chloe post recovery 

'We never used ice together, just smoked pot a lot. If we didn't have pot, we'd fight.

'The violence started happening when I was pregnant and Family and Community Services were informed and I had my son taken from me'.

Losing custody of her baby threw her straight back into her old habits and she was smoking ice and drinking heavily again.

She found herself in jail once again, this time doing three months in a women's prison, after lashing out into another violent fit of rage.  

Her troubles came to a head when she was 21, when she suffered her 'worst' violent episode.

'This was my worst one, because I bit a police officer's finger', she said. 

It was either kill yourself from the depression or rise above it. Make a change or stay at rock bottom.

'As a young aboriginal, we get targeted a lot, so I hated police.

'I then went on the run and started missing court dates while I was pregnant with my [youngest] son. I had it in my mind that I was going to run away to another state with him', she said. 

The turning point came when Chloe returned to her mum's home, where she was convinced to make a change for the sake of her young children. 

'I thought, "I'm 21 years old now, when is this going to stop. When am I going to pull my head in?"'

'I told my mum I just wanted to hand myself in in the morning. So I called and arranged it.

'I knew in my heart that I'm worth more, that it's not for me. I knew I would end up back in jail or dead from suicide'. 

Chloe and her son
Happy and healthy life: Chloe (pictured with her family) said she is happy to know there is a way out of drugs and addiction, as many people never live to recover

Happy and healthy life: Chloe (pictured with her family) said she is happy to know there is a way out of drugs and addiction, as many people never live to recover 

Life after drugs: Chloe now lives in Parramatta with her children, daughter Alinta, nine, Amaroo, six, and Aziah, three, and remains close with her family

Life after drugs: Chloe now lives in Parramatta with her children, daughter Alinta, nine, Amaroo, six, and Aziah, three, and remains close with her family

Chloe was slapped with a 14-month sentence, serving five months in prison, and nine months outside, meaning she was forced to give birth in custody.   

'That I was the hardest thing I ever had to do. I was so used to holding my babies and I just knew this was not right. I shouldn't be putting my babies in this position.

'It was either, kill yourself from the depression or rise above it. Make a change or stay at rock bottom.'

While in jail, Chloe began efforts to get on the straight and narrow, calling in to rehab facilities for young mothers and children. 

After she was released, she was placed on parole and probation but she was not allowed to stay at her mother's house, where her children was living. 

She continued to work on rehabilitation and finally got clean when she was 21 and a half years old.  

'It was nice to hear my mum because for so long I disappointed her, so it was so comforting to hear that my family was happy I was home.

Hundreds of users have commented on the post praising her for being able to turn her life around

Hundreds of users have commented on the post praising her for being able to turn her life around

'Even through my addiction I was still close to my kids, but I wasn't giving them what they deserved.

'I've got rid of all my friends that are still stuck in addiction.'

Chloe said getting clean allowed her to feel 'empowered' and 'liberated', allowing her to set goals for herself. 

'In my heart, I know I'll never use again because the rewards from recovery are too great', she said. 

'Even still to this day, I get flashbacks, but I just don't want to go near it ever again'.

Since turning her life around, Chloe now lives in Parramatta with her children, daughter Alinta, nine, Amaroo, six, and Aziah, three, and she remains close with her family. 

She is now in a partnership with her mum in an Aboriginal jewelry-making business and is working on getting her certificate in community service to get into youth work.  

'It's overwhelming, the amount of support I've got. I've got comments about people losing their children to [addiction]. 

'I'm glad I put my story out there because there's always that sad story, especially in Aboriginal communities where drugs have come in and ripped families and communities apart.

'The media portrays us as drunks and addicts and you don't really hear the good stories.

'It's really nice because I see girls tag their friends and say, "we can do it", and you can. There is a life after drugs'.


Chloe's Facebook post has since received more than 7,500 reactions and has been shared 2,000 times.

Hundreds of users have commented on the post praising her for being able to turn her life around. 

'I obviously don't know you gorgeous girl but what an inspiration you are. I am an Emergency Nurse and I see and deal with this drug and its aftermath on a daily basis', one woman wrote. 

She continued: 'How refreshing to see you had the courage, strength and determination to fight your demons and want better for you and your babies.

'What an awesome achievement you and those around you should hold your/their heads high with pride'.

One user congratulated the woman, revealing her father is currently struggling with addiction.  

'It takes a lot. I wish my dad could do it, I believe in him. Hopefully he can do it one day... Your amazing sis, everyone's so proud of you. I may not know you but congratulations', she said. 

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