Can you remember when pop stardom used to be a glamorous, aspirational career? On No Shame, one of the sparkiest, wittiest figures in British pop confesses to a life of meaningless sex, drug addiction, isolation, distrust, damaged relationships, failed domesticity, inadequate parenting and crippling self-doubt fuelled by a cruelly embattled relationship with a hostile media and internet trolls. “I’ve tried everything to feel something,” sings Lily Allen, her soft, high voice adrift on a wave of distorting harmonies. “But nothing,” she concludes, devastatingly.
Everything to Feel Something is the pitch-black heart of Allen’s fourth album, a tripped-out slow jam on which she surrenders to sexual conquest knowing she is going to hate herself in the morning. “My heart aches,” she sighs with devastating numbness. “All I need is someone to walk all over me/ Close the door behind you, please.” Produced by Fryars, art pop maverick, it may be the most gorgeous and brutal pop song about self-loathing since Robbie Williams’s Come Undone.
Should we be worried about Allen? An early pioneer of curated online stardom, she has always been bold, mouthy and fearless. Top of the blogs at 21, she caused a sensation in 2006 with her cheeky debut, Alright, Still, sold two million copies of 2009’s It’s Not Me, It’s You and declared herself Sheezus in 2014 with her third consecutive chart-topping album. Following a four-year musical hiatus and divorce from the father of her two children, however, her comeback might be subtitled It’s Not You, It’s Me.